Hello again

Hey guys whats up, it has been a long time, i know. but im here still :) well i dont really have any idea to blog about but i just feel like writing something hahah, okay lets see..

I'll just imagine you asking me ''hey Nira how you doing?''

hmm.. school's good but boring, with all those assignments, tests, presentation bla blaa but atleast i got em done okay hahah. Challenging part is waking up for class, and yes im that student who would interrupt the lecture for that 'few seconds famous', like those WWE wrestler's entrance part HAHA.

hahah! guess who? well thats just me, boring IT class in the a.m

Oh and i got good news! that ive been eating alot now yay! you guys have no idea how hard it is for me to gain weight >< eventho it takes so much time but atleast its something right? i found that zombie-like appetite again kekeke.

So yeah, im doing good.. just doing my stuff, looking forward for tomorrow and waiting for my hair to grow long :D I'll talk to you soon. 

Till next time, xx

Dear Brother,

So your flight's gonna be tomorrow. I dont know if we're able to visit you there, but for sure this Raya wont gonna be the same hahah. Mama asked me if I text you on anything before you go, well I was planning to but I was just running out of words. hmm kinda took almost  30min for few sentences text for you, you know? Kinda got me asking "why is it so hard to talk to you?". 

I cant really tell if we really got along before, have we? yeah maybe. 

Honestly, deep down, i just wanna ask you what made you change so much? I know you changed for good but why? I know youre trying to do the right thing but lately, why do i feel like things are falling apart? Sometimes youre just too much to handle and it scares me, yeah and sometimes gets on my nerves. Its like youre pushing things the opposite way. Have you ever had the thought of how it effect me? Yet youre pointing fingers away to blame. Look, Im tired of getting pushed around, I dont even want anything from you. All i was hoping for was having a brother that is there for me, but guess youre just one of those people whos.. whos pointing the gun at me. But why does it have to be you brother?

Im sorry for disappointing you, for not being as what you expect me to be. And whenever you bring up something, i refused to talk about it and tried to avoid them cause i dont wanna argue with you. Im trying to make things up for you, so why cant you do the same for me? Im writing it up here instead of coming up to you to say it cause i find it so hard to talk to you. We never really have a deep convo, not just that, we rarely have any convo. and i cant remember when was the last time you were happy for me. 

Im actually up for this battle, i dont mind facing this the hard way or any way. But one thing im asking for, please dont bring this up infront of our mother. That time we fought, i cant stand watching her cry so much because of us. I just dont want her to blame herself on this, I dont want her to have the thought  that she fail to raise us well. Just dont. You might not forgive me for what i did or for not listening to you, but i really really wanna know if you did mean what you said to me that night, "i dont trust you anymore", eventho i was putting on my best poker face when you said that right to my face, those 5 words still echoes around me. I dont get it, why do we have to be like this? what? God has a better plan? How can i think positive for this when everything is negative? Are you waiting for me to breakdown infront of you so that you finally know? Do you really want me to cry for you? Not sure if ive written down enough here. Goodluck for what youre going.

I dont really miss you now but i might miss you later. I dont know but if you think that changing the way as you are right now gonna make everything better, if thats what you think then why am i missing the old you?


family,
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2013 Highlights !

okay so i decided to start off this blog with 2013 highlights! I gotta warn you for the endless photos below, ehem. hahah. 2013, was kinda good kinda sucks but whats important is I made it through okay? but it was a tough year since it was my senior year in PTEM which also means a suicide --> A level exams. you cannot believe how hard it was, i have no idea why did i even sign up for that shit! well actually my dad told me to go for A levels. tsk maybe thats what i get for listening to father huh? shishh. really man, A levels are the pain in the Ass, serious. It got me stay up all night, and choke myself the rest of the day. okay Im so done with it so whatever, i got DDE, means 3As so thats something....i guess.

Also, 2013, as usual I flew back and forth to Singapore but this time not so, again because of that damn A levels. Sadly, I didnt attend any concert that year, and I MISSED BIG BANG LIVE TOUR in Singapore, ughh cant you see how A levels being such a bitch to me! :( cockblocker! *coughs, not sorry for the language haa!

Okay where was I ? well actually 2013 was not so bad. I gained new friends, new experience, new lessons, new challenge, new new bam bam bam here there! Especially from our Travel&Tourism project, where me and my other team members (8) were given a task to plan and manage a tourism event. We did every single thing aaaaall by our own, everything. Working behind the scenes was tough as hell, where you need to have everyone to agree with you, contact those tourism companies, keep in touch with those govt people, keep your finances clean, your team healthy and gahh was hell! but at D-Day, the event turn out to be unexpectedly super awesome! everyone loved it, it was hella fun and damn i miss those days.

Aight i can tell i talked too much now so im just gonna let the photos i took in 2013 continue the talking. ( yall be like "then why the hell didnt you just post the photos at first??") hahah naah you guys are too nice to say that right? *kiss kiss HAHAH

So far these are the photos i found from 2013, geez im not gonna post every single photo i took. hahah. Some of them are from Raya, trip to Batam Indonesia, crazy moments with friends and cousins, yolo moments, tourism project moments and so on. Not gonna remind myself about the bad sides of 2013, I am blessed to have family and friends close with me through all time. sigh.. yeah i love you too people. HAHAH. but hey, ....

...naah nothing. what? you expect me to go on with a deep talk or something? hahah kinda too sleepy for that now but heres a hug :)

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Dali Van Picasso

As you can see, i picked Dali Van Picasso for my URL aaaaand i got asked where the hell i get that. Well its actually a song, more like a rap, by Beenzino which is one of my fav korean rapper. HEART EYE EMOJIS~~~~ hahahah! So..

WHY DALI VAN PICASSO?

Dali comes from Salvador Dali, Van comes from Van Gogh and Picasso's from Pablo Picasso. If these 3 are new to you, well let me introduce you to my friends. lol. Simply, they are what you call TRUE ARTIST. Simply-er, we all know you have this magic call 'google'. hahah. You guys should check out their paintings, theyre really beyond imaginations!

Picasso's

Dali's

Van Gogh's

So what im trying to say here is imagine Dali, Van, Picasso, these 3 are inside me. BAMM! hows that huh?  Okay, from what i think, i believe everybody is born an artist. What you have in you is an art! so you gotta puke em all out, hahah. Man im fuckin artist.

Fine. If you still dont get me then you should check out Dali Van Picasso lyrics by Beenzino. teehee!

 ....okay i think i upload too much photos of him. So say hello to Beenzino guys.. AINT HE CUTE?!!

Till next time.

What Up

Hello there creations of god! hahah well this girl just got herself a blog so yeah everything's new to me.. yeah kinda suck at this but I'll try to get over it soon. so... WHAT UP? hahah. I'll think of a way on where i should start this, lol actually this is the starting. okay im getting nonsense now but I'll do a proper post on the next one aight? so, before i backspace all of this, umm... okay im just gonna give you a hug, take em as a welcome hug? friendly hug? a 'hey im new' hug? HAHAH whatsoevershit hug you want. :)

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